Sleep has
never become such an awesome thing. If i had a birthday wish,
it would be to be able to sleep for two hours at the most. Shiloh
is up every thirty minutes to an hour to eat in the night and he
stays up. Last night he was screaming the whole night. It
became apparent that Shiloh is nothing like Jasper was. Its not
a bad thing just a very big adjustment...
Yesterday i
found out i have ovarian cancer. I got my cervics frozen and
will have to have my tubes tied to avoid more active cells
reproducing, When i heard that, the doctor talking became a blur
and all i heard was
* cancer...
* tubes tied
* never can
have kids again
* radiation
My heart sank
and i became physically ill. I never thought i would ever say i would
be a cancer patient, but at the age of 22 i now can say it, im
terrified. I am a cancer victim.
