Sick day.

Thats all there is too it.  I have been in bed all day, Its one of those days where I was depressed, sick and miserable all in one.  thats all i have to say about today..

And for that moment, everything was perfect.

Today I got up,  fed Jasper and Shiloh their breakfast, And than we went outside....again:)  I am loving this weather so much!  We decided to go on another mile walk, but this time, in a jogger. Can i just say, MUCH EASIER than the stroller... wow!   Anyways.  The horses came out today in the fields:)  I was sitting on my couch, wishing my grass was green  but besides the point, it will get that way soon, i was looking out my huge window and seeing the horses, looking at my garden, and at the trees and the beautiful sun and my two kidlets and i thought to myself. what a awesome life i have! And for that moment, everything was perfect.

Just watching the horses in our backyard.

they love the mile walk!

loving the sun!

Best friends forever!

Gardening

Today was a pretty much out door day.  Went to the garden shop with Jasper and Shiloh. Bought some onions, leeks, carrots and some flowers of sorts and fertilizer etc.  Came home, pulled weeds for about 2 hours and raked, made the soil workable,  planted the stuff and just as i planted the flowers and put them in the ground....Shiloh steps all over them.... the most expensive ones too...it was rather frustrating.. But i fixed it.  Than Shiloh got a hold of the weed whacker thing and stabbed me in my eye with it ( on accident of course) so, i officially have a eye that is swollen. Jasper just played and helped dig, climbed trees, etc.. Im going to put a waterfall in the backyard and stepping stones with some trees in the back so im trying to get it all set up.  And i cant wait to get my garden set up!  In a talk once in conference someone said, " one day i promise you, you will be living off of what you grow"   so i'm making sure we got all the good stuff just in case:)  

This is my crew!

Just the best little helper.....poor flowers....

of course, Jazz is climbing a tree and Shiloh is following close behind

relaxing with Jazz while Shy took a nap

this is his bed head hahaha

Kidney stones and easter eggs in trees

Today, my last kidney stone is coming out... it hurts :(   i had the kids sent to grandmas while i go through this ..last time they were in the living room watching t.v and i was screaming of pain in the bathroom.   It was hard to NOT cry around them.  It got Jasper very worried.  He automatically knew something was wrong this morning and brought me cereal in bed and said, " Mom i think i'll go to grandmas today," and than when Shiloh started walking in with Ben, Jasper said, " Your not allowed to go in there mommy is sick and i'm her guard." ha ha ha what a sweet kid.    
Jasper helped grandma put up Easter decorations.  It was cute:)  my mom always hangs plastic eggs on the trees at her house.   Tradition as you may call it:)

Im gonna do this.

Alot has happened.  We finally are in our house.  Its so wonderful. In a good and awesome ward which we love, great neighbors, our yard is huge. Lots of space.  We are very grateful! Ive decided im going to write a blog a day, even if they are boring, im gonna try. :)  Its been nice living walking distance to both sides of the family. I walk up to my parents almost daily. Its a mile walk. But its good for the kids and myself.   My health is doing great!  Besides the kidney stones of course haha
We gave a talk in church on the 24th of March :) i think it went well.  Ben did great too! On other note. Our old town house complex has been giving us hell. Personally i dont think it should be our responsibility to paint  or pay for it.. seriously.  but we set up payment plans to pay off the 1000 dollars we owe to move out of that hell hole.   I keep thinking positive though. We are out of that horrid place!!!
Easter is coming! Jaspers favorite holiday,  he loves finding the eggs and putting up the decorations.   We just had both Shilohs and Jaspers birthday's!  Jazz turns 3! and Shiloh turned 1!  love those pups!
We got chicks!  They are adorable.  All hens.  Gonna do that whole egg laying thing:) Cant wait to get my garden started! Already planted the peas!

Walk time!

Merry, Pippin, and Dumbo

Jasper and all his friends at his birthday party! After which we went to kangaroo zoo!

Shilohs birthday~

Our chicks

Just a ton.

Welp, its 2013!   So many new things to write about.. I had to get another surgery. It went alright and things are doing better,  i sat there for months asking god to help me and to help me get through this.  I wasted 12 months of my sons lives being sick and having a hard time watching them.  It was heart wrenching.  BUT.  things are really looking up now. Im starting to feel alive again and healthy.  We Bought our new house and first house!  Five bedrooms, Two bathrooms, 1/2 acre lot with horses in the backyard AND its in Bountiful.  Yes, my home Bountiful.  Just down the road from my parents. Not even a mile. Its amazing. Things around this apartment/townhome are really dull, i go down to bountiful every day just to avoid hearing the constant yelling of our neighbors or gun shots. or dog fights, etc.  I hate it here. Its literally a living hell. only less than a month left.  Well.. we take possession of the house on the 28th of this month. So were ditching here and going to move into our house once that hits. Its terrible here.  We despise this hell hole.. Glad were going into a house.   FINALLY!!!!  We found the perfect house at first and we put in an offer, the man that was selling the first house didn't know what he was doing and had major anger issues and completely pulled out of the market, which sucks for him because that would cost him a hell of a lot of time and money... so we searched more and more... we only had two months to find a house before our contract here would be done... than we finally found an even more perfect house. six houses down from the other one.. bigger and better.   And let me just say, that house buying IS SO FREAKING STRESSFUL! especially if your a control freak like me or a competitive person.. its so stressful and you CANNOT get your hopes up at all and you cant say ANYTHING until you have signed papers, gotten the appraisal done, which takes a week, and an inspection done, which also takes a few days, and than you have to discuss the appraisal rate compared to the people who are selling its rate.  like for instance.  it was clocked in at 200,000   after we got the appraisal it said it was worth 180,000  so we tried to tell the seller that were not willing to pay 200,000 and he had a stick up his butt for about 3 days. So at that point we were put on hold. We offered him 188,000 which is a pretty good deal.  FINALLY he accepted the offer.  He signed the papers saying that we and he took it " as is"    and FINALLY, it was in our hands and under contract and no one else could purchase it.   Than he had to sign other papers saying it will be ours on the 28th and until than we pay 1000 just to say" we want the house"   anyways bottom line, its a done deal and we move in on the 28th....MAN I WILL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN.  I have now 3 ulcers from that stress. Holy Hell.... anyways ill post pictures of that.

ill post inside pictures when we are all settled in.   Jasper is going to turn 3 in two months!!!! And my little Shiloh is turning 1 in a month!! Time flies... Love them with all my heart and soul. 

Love these buggars! Taylor,   Bens brother comes home from his mission in 4 days from Hawaii. I really cannot wait to see him!  Missed him and his spirit around so much.  He is an AMAZING man. Love that stud muffin a ton!    Were doing taxes this saturday, lets hope we get some big moolah back!!!!:D  Anyways.   

Shiloh got to meet Great Grandma TT for the first time and i fear probably the last time.. She is sick..:(  she basically helped raise me. Took me for the summers. always made me smile.   She was my best friend no doubt about it.. I had heard that she had lost her memory quite a bit.. she couldnt remember anyones names and that made me hesitant to even go for fear i would get heartbroken, but i wanted her to meet my Shiloh before she went.   I went up and i took a deep breath before walking into her room and when i saw her, i about cried, she looked so frail.. i went over and held her hand and she called out my name :)  she remembered me even after a year.  and i replied saying " yes its me grandma"  she cried and i of course balled. And than i showed her Shiloh,  she told me she was so proud of me.   I love my grandma tt so much. it was so hard to see her in so much pain and agony... not in her home, in a hospital care center, i didnt want to leave.. :(  it was a happy time for all of us.  

if she does go before we see her again, at least ill know she is happy now and that she is proud of me. 

Broken bones, Surgery and Gingerbread houses. :)

I must admit, it has been awhile since i last wrote. I apologize.  Alot has happened. First off.  i had to get another surgery.  Which is no fun.  Considering they give you pain meds after. Which makes me sick and makes  me loose my appetite. BUT at least they got the disease out.They stuck me 7 times with an IV needle... they couldn't find a vein... i wonder why... they told me not to eat or drink anything past 12!  lol  when i asked if another nurse could come in and give it a go, she got it in one try. haha   but i have 4 busted veins due to the lack of ..whatever you call it... responsibility? eh... anyways.  so i have alot of holes in my arms.  I'm in quite a bit of pain but i am doing better. I have had alot of help from my parents.  I feel completely like a terrible mother. Having had my kids gone everyday all day since the surgery has been hard.  They come home at night so i can be with them. but my body cant handle the rambunctious little boys. My body needs rest.
At the beginning of the month i broke my knee cap.. that went splendidly.    It really wasn't that bad though.. just a crack.  

  I AM PROUD TO ANNOUNCE  I finally said i was done with Jared and Kristin Miller!( round of applause please)   Ben's parents.  Seriously. Im so over their bull crap.  They bring up the past way to much, they don't trust anything i have to say for some ungodly reason,and yet they say they want peace....hmmmmm. yet they constantly abuse, intergiate,    oh and to top it off they called the police on me. hahah it was quite the weird experience actually.   The first thing i did when i walked into their house was, i'm not here to fight, its 9 30 at night i came to get my husband and children and to go home. i'm very tired.   and next thing you know they are calling the police.   The police came,  afterwords the woman police came up to me and thought they were delusional. They saw no point in them calling.  I was in a total state of  mind of " what the hell is their problem"   anyways. the kids were asleep luckily, if they weren't i would have had a much bigger problem with the Millers.  They are just gems let me tell ya,  anyways. bottom line is, they have lost the privilege of being grandparents to my children  i told them that they were no longer allowed to see or talk to them. in front of the police.  The police agreed that they need to back off.  They just are drama and total idiots. And i don't want that around my children especially if they cannot forget the past, move on etc. or yet alone even try to get along with me.. Ben has come to see that they have issues they obviously need to work out. And i'm not going to take the blame anymore.   Everyone sees Jared and Kristin as heavenly creatures when in all reality, they are hellions.  You have no idea. Like i said. I will not let my kids be around that poison or see it.. When they want to grow up. They can give me a call and we can work something out.    But i will not be treated as dirt anymore.  
Shiloh is walking and clapping his hands like crazy. :) Gets into everything!  Jasper has quite the imagination and says " ridiculous" alot.  " mom that's ridiculous"  hahah   Shy still has no teeth.  :(  makes me wonder.    we only have 4 more months in this place and than we are OUT FOR GOOD AND INTO A HOUSE OF OUR OWN!!!    
My parents are finally back from missions for at least a month! Thank goodness!  My birthday is coming up:)    Which means going to our park city condo:) like we do every year..  Tomorrow we get to go to Ben's work thing,  Every year they give out a 500$ gift card to Costco for a Christmas gift and a Christmas bonus of 1500$   so we are going to do our Christmas shopping done tomorrow at Costco. His work reserved a Costco for the employees that day.  I'm excited even though i will be in a wheel chair. Its shopping and i flourish when it comes to shopping! :)   Its been quite the month!  Anyways!    
We have done alot of fun activities including gingerbread houses, cookies, putting up the Christmas tree etc.  Hope you enjoy the photos!!! 

We got family photos done.  Jasper didnt really like doing that.... But we managed to get one picture of him smiling, kinda... so im grateful for that! We got some cute ones of the family though!   I already sent out greeting cards:)! wahoo! ontime!!!!