This whole day has been a terrible day. I cannot even express to you the stressfulness of the day. Last night was even worse... and it just led on today. Maybe i'm just overreacting but whatever, it is what it is, The main events were
- Shiloh Fell and cracked his head open. You feel like such a bad parent when something like that happens to your baby, it didn't bleed but his skull was cracked:,( I was seriously, three feet away, and he is a one year old who literally is always climbing and getting into trouble, it is very rare if you don't see a bruise or a scratch on this kids face, he is just into everything, but this time was literally the worst... right as he fell i screamed and shot up and went to him and picked him up and immediately looked at his eyes to see if the pupils were dilated, they were, i tested his reactions and to see if he responded to things, he was screaming which didn't make things easier, i cradeled him and the doctor later said to keep him awake and to keep his head elevated, it wasn't the worst they had seen by any means but it was still a crack and a concussion, pretty serious. seeing your baby hurt, is the worst feeling and you just ache for them. My heart has never ever beat so fast in my life and i was so terrified. If anything happened to my small Shiloh, i would never forgive myself.
- My chicken, Pippin got attacked by a cat, and when i sent the dogs after the cat, Sam attacked the cat, the neighbor ( who is hispanic whom nobody likes in the ward... ) Figures, came over and yelled. That cat attacked my chickens! I was rightfully protecting my family. I feel terrible about the cat, it was only doing what cats do. My cat however doesn't hurt the chickens. She loves them. I didn't know Sam would be that protective. i sent them out to scare it, not hurt it, Sam is such a loyal and calm dog, but he obviously saw that the chicken was in danger. I feel terrible about the cat. The chickens were in my yard, just grazing and doing their thing and they never go outside of my yard, they stay near and are very loyal. Pippin is alright, no harm, i just am worried about the cat :( even though it did wrong to my babies, i still love animals. hope its okay
- president monson's wife passed on and it just really made me sad, i never knew the man but the dedication he had for that woman and his church is unbelievable.. my heart goes out to him..
- we watched the last office finale tonight and can i just say how hurt i was? They had to put in a baby who got abandoned... why the hell did they need to put that clip in. It bugs me so bad when kids get treated like dirt, because their parents dont know how to be parents and dont care too.. it hurts me, No child should be treated like that or abandoned. It ruined the whole show, after that point ( twenty minutes into the show, not even that) i stopped watching really.
- had an open house scentsy party/cookie lee jewelry and the people who said they would come, bailed. Leaving me with the food made, and everything else i had gotten ready. I don't just do it to sell stuff, i do it to visit and talk with my friends/family. I don't get to do that often, :( i love scentsy and have done it for three years, it makes me feel like i have a job, i love the smells, the people. and helping to bring in money, I know Ben brings in great money, he is very successful and does well, but i do the same routine everyday ( i love being a mom don't get me wrong) but i want to feel like i'm doing something too, besides being a mom. If that makes any sense.
- Mowed the lawn, biggest mistake of my life. Even though i had surgery three weeks ago, its still very tender and healing, i mean getting your whole uterus and everything taken out is pretty serious, Started bleeding right after, i knew i shouldn't have done it, but there was dandelions everywhere they pop out of nowhere in like.... twenty minutes its crazy! , anyways, and it just needed to get done, if you know me at all, i like to have a nice looking house, i take pride in my home, anyways i passed out, it sucked..
it just was a bad day, this is just bits and pieces. i just had to vent, sorry for the depressing blog
