On other good news, yesterday i got a call from my brother, it has been over three years since he has called me just to check up. and he must be really bored at the hospital, but he just talked about everything with me. From needles, to catching up, to everything, it was such a blessing, Even though it was a fifteen minute call, i sure did love it and appreciated it. It was nice knowing that deep down he knows he can still call or text or talk to me about anything, and he knows i wont judge. I sure do hope he does that more often. Miss those times. Since he has gotten married or engaged, it has been hard and i have barely heard from him, I see him on holidays, and i enjoy it so much.. Thanksgiving is a time of miracles and love and i sure do love my brother.
It was no shave November. Let me just say, I have always cared about cleanness and i have no interest in a man with over grown hair and not taking pride in himself.. Even if it is NO SHAVE NOVEMBER! So... i cut Ben's hair. My mom always taught me, " always take pride in yourself. " I always swore that i would never do that to my kids because it annoyed me so badly growing up. But i realize now, how important it is.
I lost a dear friend this month. Its been a week now, and i can say it hurts. She was like family to me. I grew up with her family. Missy. Ashley always made me laugh. Always! She passed away from complications from Type 1 diabetes she was 19 years old :( and accomplished so much during her lifetime. She was an amazing girl. Loved by many, It really hit me when i went to her viewing that her spirit wasnt there anymore. Her family was so broken :( Ashley though, i knew was there, watching over them. Miss that girl.
Okay, here is my confession, our dishwasher broke...again. And you know me, i HATE doing dishes by hand, my hands get all soggy... ew.. and i understand pioneers did it without utilities etc, but i am no pioneer and i sure as hell wasnt put in that era for a reason...i wouldn't survive... so i got desperate ..... and can i just say first off, i did rinse them off before hand, and he sure loved it. haha that's what kids are for right?! :p
I am putting up Christmas decorations today..
ill post pictures after..
I have alot to say about this part, We have attempted to go to the Salt Lake Temple now 3 times. And each time, something comes up or Ben and I end up fighting for NO REASON. Ben and I rarely FIGHT. We disagree and state our opinions, but we NEVER blow up.. But each time and each day we attempt to go, we turn into different people. So we attempted to go to the six a clock session, than the 7 a clock, than the 8... and can i just say, it was miserable.. we went and parked in the conference parking lot at 720. Thinking we had plenty of time, i was wrong, i was in heels, and a skirt and a think jacket, we went and walked around the temple...there were NO DOORS, little did we know that we had to go to a different annex or whatever .... it was 8 a clock and we had been wondering around for thirty minutes, my feet were cold and hurting, and eventually my heel broke..my most expensive high heels. Everything that could go wrong was going wrong... so we headed back to the car, there was this man there, and can i just say,
Sometimes when your in the worst of moods. A simple " you look beautiful" makes it all better.
I was tired and being grumpy. He opened the door and I stomped in " you look beautiful mam". I turned around. It was a homeless man. I went to him and sat down next to him and hugged him and said " I needed that " while I balled. Afterwards I gave him a fifty and a gift card to Walmart and American eagle.
He denied it. He said I only wanted to say you looked beautiful mam. I'm happy. I have enough clothes to keep me warm. I have three meals a day and I have a hotel I stay in. I'm happy. You didn't look happy. So I wanted to say that.
Made me feel grateful and realize how much I do have. And that money isn't everything.
I was tired and being grumpy. He opened the door and I stomped in " you look beautiful mam". I turned around. It was a homeless man. I went to him and sat down next to him and hugged him and said " I needed that " while I balled. Afterwards I gave him a fifty and a gift card to Walmart and American eagle.
He denied it. He said I only wanted to say you looked beautiful mam. I'm happy. I have enough clothes to keep me warm. I have three meals a day and I have a hotel I stay in. I'm happy. You didn't look happy. So I wanted to say that.
Made me feel grateful and realize how much I do have. And that money isn't everything.
It really hit me hard, money isn't everything.
Anyways. The devil will do everything in his power to stop me from going or getting close to the temple... i guess i wasnt strong enough to resist him... he can go screw himself..
Well this is the end of the blog for now... ill do another one soon.
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